A Golden Butterfly
“Daddy,
why do I always know when someone talks behind my back? It's like
every time they whisper, I can listen to their conversation clearly
even though they sit all the way down the soccer field. It annoys me
in every way. Sometimes, I find out something that I'm not supposed
to know. I don't like it daddy, not in the slightest bit.” the 7
years old Davin asked.
I've
just come out from the kitchen when my son started to ask his dad all
of those questions. I can see that his daddy has a difficult time
trying to avoid the questions. Honestly, I don't know how to answer
those questions either. Those innocent little questions that my son
has just asked that actually have a not-so-innocent answer.
“Why
don't you like it? It's like you can read their mind. Isn't that
something that you have always wanted? The power of mind reading?”
Ky, Davin's daddy tried to ask back.
“Well
yeah, it was. But after I experienced it myself, I don't really want
it now.”
“Why?”
“There
are some things that are better left unsaid. Sometimes, it is better
when we don't know. Other than that, I'm tired of listening to people
who I don't know commenting about my ear. It's irritatingly
annoying.”
We
both stay quiet. It is true. Every word that came out from Davin's
mouth is nothing but true. It's true that his ears are different from
the rest of us. True that knowing everything in the world is pure
hell. And it is undeniably true, that he is different. Ky turns to me
and smile at me. I smile back, and the moment takes me to 15 years
ago.
~~~
September,
15 years ago
I
was 17 years old at that time. I was a transfer student in one of the
prestigious high school in the city. I had lived in the suburbs
before, but because of my grandmother's request, I moved to the city
to accompany her. I gladly accepted my granny's request because I had
always wanted to explore the city. Not that I hated my life before,
but it's always great to have many experiences right?
My
granny was the so-called-socialite in her age. Just as I arrived for
the very first time in my granny's house, she immediately told me to
get ready for another occasion at her friend's house.
“Granny!
It's Krystal. Oh my god I missed you so muc....”
“Krystal
darling you finally arrived! You'd better hurry now, go wash up and
change to nice dress will you? I will be downstairs if you need me.”
She said as she practically dragged me to my new room. No hugs, no
kisses? Well that's my grandmother. Even though she's already old,
she still had so much energy and so much spirit to carry on with her
life.
So
after I washed up and changed to the dress that my grandmother had
prepared, I went downstairs just to bump into my grandmother. I
grinned at her and hugged her tight. I had missed her so much that I
was so happy just to see her again.
“You're
ready! Oh my God you had grown to such a beautiful girl. I really
can't wait to introduce you to my friends”
“Wait...
what friends? I thought you're going to take me for dinner?”
“Well,
you will have your dinner, dear. But at one of my friend's house. Is
it alright with you to accompany your old grandmother?”
She
just had to say that line. I just took her hand and we both went
inside the car which took us to the place. Granny's friend's house
was not that crowded, but it wasn't deserted either. After I ate some
food, I started to feel hot and went out to the small garden at the
back of the house. I sat on one of the swing, and plugged in my
earphones. I randomly chose a song and closed my eyes to enjoy the
upcoming autumn wind.
A
few minutes later, I felt a finger poke me. I turned around and I was
faced with a pair of golden eyes. In that moment, my mind couldn't
concentrate in anything else but this pair of golden eyes.
“Why
are you staring at me?” the boy, who I just realized to be the
owner of the golden eyes asked.
“Why
did you poke me?” I asked back, try to put myself back together
after a few embarrassing seconds.
“I
was just trying to make sure that you're still alive”
“Ha..
very funny” I tried to sound sarcastic. But I knew that I failed
miserably. The boy sat on the swing next to me and he started to play
with it. He also closed his eyes and maybe also enjoying the wind
like what I had been doing before he interrupted me.
I
studied his face. He was indeed handsome. His dark brown hair messily
covered his head. He had a nice sharp jaw as his unique feature.
Suddenly, he stood up from the swing and walked away. After 3 steps,
he turned back and approached me again.
“What's
your name?”
“And
why do I have to tell you?” I asked. After all, he was just a
random stranger that happened to pass by and think that I was dead.
He continued to stare at me, and I knew that he wouldn't take no for
an answer.
“Okay,
okay, I'm Krystal” I finally said as I looked at his eyes.
“Ky.”
he smiled a little and continued his walk.
His
eyes were black.
~~~
It
was my first day of school when I met him again. The last time I met
him, I can still remember the black eyes which pierced my own eyes. I
certainly remembered that his eyes were gold. Or maybe that was only
my imagination? What kind of human have a pair of golden eyes?
"Hi
Ky"
"Oh it's you again"
"So you go to this school too?"
"Well as you can see, I wear the same uniform like everybody else here. I should be the one who ask you that question"
"Oh it's you again"
"So you go to this school too?"
"Well as you can see, I wear the same uniform like everybody else here. I should be the one who ask you that question"
He
just walked away when I met him in the hallway. I just shrugged it
away and continue to walk to my class. It appeared that I was
attending the same class as he was. I took a notice that he was
surrounded by 5 boys. I assumed that they were his close friends.
They were chatting and laughing and I could see that he was enjoying
himself.
The
teacher came into the class and instantly all of the students went
back to their respective seats. I didn't know where to sit, so I just
stood beside the door. The teacher took notice of me, and I was told
to introduce myself to the class.
"Okay
so now all of you, please treat Krystal kindly. And Krystal, welcome
to the class." The teacher said to me while I just smiled
politely.
"Now
go to your seat. Let's see, okay you can sit next to Ky there on the
back"
I
instantly looked to him and I could swear that I saw him smirking at
me.
His
eyes were blue.
~~~
I
figured out that Ky was quite popular at the school. Being myself, I
wasn't the type to make myself in the spotlight. Every time I passed
Ky in the hallway, we would just nod at each other to acknowledge
each other. I didn't know whether we were friends or not. But it's
safe to say that we knew each other.
One
day, I was doing my homework in the school's library and I didn't
realize that the sun had set. Quickly, I packed all of my stuff and
exit the library. I had to walk past the auditorium from the place I
was at, but when I came nearer and nearer to the auditorium, I could
hear a sound coming out from the auditorium. With much curiosity, I
peeked through the door and I was astounded by the fact that there
was someone dancing on the stage.
Your
small wing movements, my attraction to you
Your
hand gestures seem like you’re telling me to follow you
You
sit lightly like a waltz and I can’t take my eyes off of you
My
eyes naturally follow you each step you take
Butterfly.
I realized that it was Ky. He was dancing with so much passion and
heart. I did know that he took performing arts as one of his extra
activities, but I didn't know that he was that good. I continued to
watch him dancing and I found myself gotten more and more attracted
to him. Suddenly, I came back to my sense and he was already staring
at me.
“What
are you doing here?”
“Hey
you are such a good dancer. Okay good is an understatement, but oh my
God you're so good. Why didn't you show yo...”
“What
are you doing here?” he asked again. I was silenced by the tone
that he used to me.
“I
was just passing by and I heard a sound and voila I'm here”
He
took a deep breath and sat on the stage. He looked tired, so I
approached him and offered him some water. He sat still and I just
dropped myself beside him. We stayed silent for a while when suddenly
I felt a thud on my right shoulder. He had dropped his head on my
shoulder.
“I'm
sorry but I'm dead tired right now so would you mind if I used your
shoulder for a while?” he asked. He had already leaned to me so
there's no use for me to decline his request. So I just stayed
silent. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes, when suddenly he
broke the silence.
“Why
did you move to the city?”
“Why
do you want to know?”
“Why
do you always have to ask back when I ask you about something?”
I
didn't answer that question immediately. He was right, I always asked
back when people ask me something. It was like my personal defense to
assure that they mean no harm.
“I
have my reasons. So I came because my granny wanted some company and
because I have always wanted to live in the city”
“I
see, so do you like it here?”
“Well
as far as for now, it's fun and I could make new friends.”
“Glad
that you like it here” he smiled and I found myself warming up on
the cheek.
“Since
when have you been dancing?” I just had to ask that question.
“I
don't quite remember. Actually, I don't really remember about my
childhood life. I tried, but I just couldn't. There was a music and I
started to hum along with it, and by the time I realize it, I was
dancing to the music. My grandmother was really excited by the fact
that I can dance. She entered me to dancing school which I still
attend right now”
“How
about your parents? I'm sure they were as excited as your
grandmother”
“They're
dead” his answer shocked me.
“My
grandmother always said that my parents died in a plane crash when I
was five. I didn't remember having my parents dead, but maybe it's
because I was young"
"Why
don't you try asking the details of it? If I were you, I wouldn't be
able to be so accepting like that"
"How
can I possibly understand about an accident? I was five. Do you think
I didn't try to ask? I used to nag a lot and ask people here and
there about my early life. But I always felt that they lied to me,
and I'm tired of it. So I just accepted the fact that I am an orphan.
I like how the thing goes in my life, so I stop questioned anything
to anyone”
He
was being so straightforward. He was the complete opposite of me,
while I questioned about everything in life, he just accepted it.
While I was always suspicious to someone, he just welcomed that
someone. We stood by the polar end of an orbit.
“It's
late now, I'll walk you home” he said as he stood up and offered me
a hand. I took his hand and stood up myself. I wasn't really sure
with him walking me home, but well he's my grandmother's friend's
grandson so why not?
“So
are we friends now?” I looked him in the eye.
“Friends”
His
eyes were green
~~~
After
that fateful night, we became close. We talked and I was introduced
to his friends. They kept teasing me and Ky to be an item, but we
were not. Sometimes he took me to places I had never been before, and
I enjoyed his presence as well. I kept telling him to dance again in
front of me, but he always declined my request.
I
kept my curiosity inside about his constant eye color changing. I
noticed that his eyes change whenever he changes mood. Like his eyes
would turn green when he was happy, and blue when he was excited. I
always wondered what color would his eyes turn if he's sad. Maybe
red. Usually, his eyes were black but when he was with me or his
friends, they would turn to dark brown. I had never seen his golden
eyes again, so I think it was me who had mistaken the color of his
eyes that time.
I
also noticed that his eyes were amazingly sharp. One time, I was
chatting with my friend on the soccer field. She was asking me about
my relationship with him and asking me all about him. Apparently she
was a fan. I knew that Ky was sitting on the other side of field and
was playing with his friends. I caught a sight of him watching me
talk. By the time we got dismissed, he approached me and said “Enjoy
talking about me behind my back?”.
The
other one, when he drove me to one of the mall in the city, he
suddenly changed road and went to different mall. I was astounded by
his actions, and when I got home 2 hours later, I saw in the news
that there was a heavy traffic on the road to that mall we were
supposed to visit since 3 hours ago.
I
got my answer sooner than I expected. One day, he was going to visit
his parents tomb and asked me to accompany him. In the middle of the
road he remembered that he left his wallet at his bedroom, so we
turned around and went to his house first. We entered the house, and
it was my second time being there. The first one would be the first
day I came to the city. He quickly went upstairs while he left me in
the living room.
“Who
are you?” a voice suddenly asked. I turned around and faced his
grandmother.
“Hello,
I'm Krystal – Ky's friend” I answered politely
“Oh
so you're that Krystal? You're so pretty, no wonder Ky talks about
you a lot. You're Shira's granddaughter right?” she said straight.
I could feel that my cheek reddened because of her statement about Ky
talking about me a lot.
“Yes
I'm granny Shira's granddaughter. Oh yeah? I hope Ky doesn't talk
about my bad side to you” I tried to laugh to set aside my
embarrassment.
“Of
course not darling. Let me tell you, Ky is really shy so maybe you
should give him a chance”
I
couldn't understand the meaning of her statement, so I just nod. I
tried to carry on the conversation so it wouldn't get awkward between
us. We talked about things to kill the time.
"I
quit the organization you know" Ky's grandmother said suddenly.
"What
do you mean?"
"Now
I can see why Ky always talks about you." she said as she
giggled a little.
I
didn't answer so she continued with what she should say.
"I
know that you've noticed it. Ky is different from us. You must be
confused for a very long time. But please believe me, he is a good
kid"
"So
there's a solid reason for his constant eye color changing? He hasn't
told me the reason for it"
Ky's
grandmother was silent for a few seconds and her answer made me
froze.
"He
won't darling, because he himself doesn't know the reason"
"..why
not?"
"Because
he is tired of asking. He used to be a boy with such a curious mind.
But I've always lied to him. All of these years I've been lying to
him. The first time I met him was when the organization introduce me
to him as his grandmother. Since then, I've always been lying to him.
About many things. I didn't even realize it, Ky had changed. He
became quieter, and stopped asking questions. Since then, I never
heard Ky complain or even question about something."
"Wait
what?"
"You
must be wondering why I'm telling you all of these things. And now,
you must have so many questions inside your pretty little head. Here
you should read this. It will answer all of your questions" she
said while she handed me a paper.
I
looked at her again just to make sure that she was being serious. By
the time I tried to talk again, Ky came back and ready to go. We bid
goodbye to Ky's grandmother and went away.
In
the car, Ky said something that caught me off guard.
"I
know, you know"
His
eyes were red.
~~~
Later
that night, I stayed awake to read the paper which Ky's grandmother
had given to me. I had trouble understanding the content of the paper
which turned out to be a letter. When I reached the end of the
letter, I dropped the paper.
~~~
Hello.
I'm writing this letter inside a room inside a building where I'm not
familiar with. You must be wondering who am I right now. Okay so
basically I'm a 5 year old boy who is going to have an experience
worth a lifetime. I don't know what it called, but they just asked me
to write this letter that contains everything in my life before this.
I'm
the only son of my family. I live with my mom and dad who are always
busy. My grandmother used to live with us, but she had died from
cancer a year ago. In my house, there are only maids and guards, so I
often sneak my way out so I can play at the park. My life is so
boring sometimes I wish that something incredible happen to me
instead.
One
day I was playing at the park alone when a man approached me. He
asked me if I was bored or not. I said yes. And then he offered me
something that I couldn't reject.
“Do
you want your life to be more exciting?”
Of
course I said yes. I'm an adventurous kid who is not afraid of
anything. So they practically dragged me here and explained to me
briefly. I'm going to have a few operations. They said after these
operations, I will have a power like what the superheroes have. I
would sacrifice anything to have a power like that.
But
for the side effects, I will lose all of my memories before this. I
agreed with the condition. There isn't much to remember anyway.
That's why I'm writing this letter, so I won't feel lost and know
where do I come from.
I
have to go now, they are already calling me. I hope the operation
will turn out well.
With
Love,
Ky
~~~
Back
to the present
After
reminiscing the past, I quickly gather myself and approach both of
them. I look at both of them, my son who has the perfect image
replica of his father, and Ky. We never talked about what he had said
in the car, but we both know that we can trust each other. Ky is
practically still the same with the Ky 15 years ago. His eyes are
still changing colors but he manage to slip away from anyone's
suspicions by saying that he wears contact lenses.
“Different
is good dear. It doesn't mean that you're not like everyone else.
Everybody has their own quality, and each of them is different. You
must remember this Davin. Though things may not flow where the wind
goes, you shouldn't become still water” I said suddenly and make
both of them a little bit surprised.
“But
Mom, I'm tired of being casted away. I want to play too. What's wrong
with me anyway?”
“There
are things that you can't understand fully right now. But I can
assure you that you're completely fine. There's nothing wrong with
you. You seem to think people won't like you unless you are just like
everyone else. Have you ever thought people might like you because
you're different?”
Davin
can't answer the question. I hug him tightly and begin stroking his
hair.
“Please
don't stress yourself out because of this. You still have a long way
to go through your life. Just keep your head high and be yourself.
Don't mind those who talk about you. It means that they care about
you”
“Okay
Mommy, Daddy. Thanks for making me feel better. I love you both to
the moon and back” Davin said cutely.
“Do
you want to know something?” Ky suddenly said to him
“What
Daddy?”
“I'm
different too”
As
he said that, I can see his eyes begin to change their color. Davin's
eyes widened instantly and I can only smile. Ky grinned at him, and
Davin smile widely.
In
that very moment, I feel like my life is perfect. I know there is no
such a perfect life in this world. But knowing that I have these 2
guys right here right now, I couldn't ask for more. Not when there is
already so much warmness and love.
Ky
suddenly turns his head to look at me. And I can see it. Like the
first time I met this guy. The thing that attracts me to him,
attracts me to this beautiful butterfly. His golden eyes.
